Missing Someone

This is a post I've been thinking about for a while.
It's all about missing someone, but not just anyone.

Lately I've been thinking about the people in your life that you're so happy they're gone. Your life was changed because of them--some days it's for the better and some days it's not.

How about when someone new comes into your life?

Things seemingly get better and you think about the other person less and less.
Of course, most of the time, you can't avoid them forever.

So...what do you do then?

Not too long ago I thought about a person who is no longer in my life (for the better). However, thinking about them made me stop. Why was I thinking about them? Did I miss them? Why?

It made me think about my boyfriend as well. Does he think about people in his past? People he says he hates, but he could still think about them...right? I am a jealous person, even if I try not to be. I think about others, even when I don't mean to, so how can I be so jealous of him thinking about others?

Does anyone else do this? Like seriously.

I'm fine and dandy and my life is great then BAM, that stupid random person pops in your head or on facebook or some random way and you look at them and think about that moment when you were actually happy being around them.

Don't get me wrong, I would never cheat. I would've even think about cheating. However, my mind just races away with weird thoughts of the past. Once I come to...well I realize that the person in the past is there for a reason. They're in the past for a reason. That's always so important for a reason.

If people are meant to be in your life they will be. I try to believe  that things happen for a reason, some times that is easier said than done, but I do try. I'm sure most people do. However, it's not fair when you think about someone you really don't want to. Yes, I understand life isn't fair, but it doesn't really make things easier.

So, long story short. Why do I do this?! Please tell me I'm not the only one.
The past can stay in the past any time now. KTHX!

A New Year

We're a month into the new year and today I really took a moment to step back and think. Yes, it's only 9:40am, but I was thinking anyways. This time last year I just came home from spending a month in Florida and little did I know how much my life was about to change.

So much has happened in the past year. I'm sure most of you can say the same. (Are there still any readers out there anyways?)

This past year has been filled with many ups and downs, like most years. However, this past year was different. I feel like I grew up. I grew a back bone. I truly started believing in myself and believing that wonderful things can happen to me.

If anyone has followed this blog from the start, then you know what kind of roller coast this year has been.

Of course, I haven't put out everything that has happened and I know I've been slacking on post, but I'll try to change that. I miss writing. I start writing for an outlet for myself. If anyone else wanted to read, well they were more than welcomed.

Then I got feedback. It made me realize that I was touching people--in a non-dirty way. (WINK!)

My life has been filled with many--weird-- and wonderful things. It's taken me a while to realize that I have amazing people in my life...but I also have amazing people because I'm amazing. It's one of those treat others how you'd like to be treated things. If you're kind, kindness will come. If you're friendly, friends will come...you get where I'm going.

Anyways, I'm hoping this year I will keep growing. I hope that I'll be able to inspire at least one person. I think that's something we all should do. It just might make the world a little bit better.