First Practice and the Day After

IT SUCKS. I knew it would be hard and that it would hurt, but it sucks. If my sister wasn't there, I don't think I would've been able to make it through the practice. It's weird how advice coming from your sister is just that...advice; however, hearing it from someone else is like they're taking a hit on you. It's not fun, it's not nice, but guess what? All you can do is suck it up. There's nothing else you can do. It does feel like this pain is the only thing I have control over at the moment. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, I don't think it is. My job is crazy, I don't know what I'm doing with my schooling and applying for DCP...well what am I going to do?! If I get accepted I have no idea what I will do. Will I take it? Will I like it? Do I even (truly) want to move away from my family? It's a lot to take in and while it is exciting I know these nerves won't go away until I throw myself into something. Derby is that something...at least for right now.